On Not Knowing

While I was travelling to the office this morning I got thinking about what it was I was going to write about today. A couple of topics crossed my mind but they just didn’t feel like the thing I wanted to write about and my gut instinct was telling me that I probably wouldn’t enjoy it as much if I worked it that way.

I considered all the new things I’ve been learning lately, all the interesting conversations I’ve had with some fantastic people and all the experiences that have been going on within and around me, and still, I just couldn’t think what it was I wanted to write about.

At some point between the tube station and the office a bolt of lightening, inspiration, or what ever it is that tends to shoot down from the sky and make you go..duh!, hit me and I realised what I was doing which then lead to me knowing what to write about.

As I noticed the internal conflict I was having with myself in an attempt to overcome the not-knowing-what-to-write, I realised that there was something going on that really didn’t need to be. For me, when I’m inspired, it’s because I’ve made it easy for myself and I’ve let whatever thoughts and feelings just flow and the little voice in my head just carry on it’s own business.

Do I not destroy my enemy when I make him my friend – Michael Neil quoting Abraham Lincoln.

The thing is, while were in a state of fighting with ourselves in order to achieve a result, we’re fighting with ourselves. This inner conflict is often that place which people know as “writers block” or “being stuck”. When you learn to allow yourself to experience what ever it is you’re experiencing and accept it as being the experience of now, you suddenly find things changing.

The paradox is that the more you fight with yourself to get what you want, the harder it seems to be. Now I’m not saying it’s impossible because I know people who have fought and fought and fought and got what they wanted but I also know people who allow themselves to be in the moment, who accept that it’s actually allowed for themselves to feel things that they might otherwise consider as “bad” or “limiting”.

So I decided to allow myself this morning to just not know. To not know what I was going to write today and to enjoy the not knowing. Funnily enough that very same thing became my inspiration for writing today.

Take a moment either now or when you get the time, to notice what things in life you’re really struggling to achieve. Whether its success, money, love, respect, more clients… and give yourself permission to feel the way you do. Notice what it’s like to have allowed yourself to feel the way you do and then let go.

If you’re saying to yourself…”I just can’t seem to make as much money as I want”…allow yourself to feel that way. If you’re feeling grumpy or moody, let yourself. In the coming minutes, hours, days, weeks and months, notice how easily things begin to change.

I’d love to hear some feedback on how this works for you today so please feel free to post your experiences.

Love, Jamie